ok, the internet isn't a place to win help nor place real histories, or you will worsen yourself.
like FB ... you get in the .... for say something.
problems are all for myself.
like ... never help. why someone will help!?
well, it's best to not hope anything!
don't write! it's hopeless! its better to talk with your door, wall, dog street, or stray cat.
Like the question "are you ok?", everybody says "I'm ok!" even if isn't ok, isn't a meaningless question!?
its better to act than ask if something is ok!
how everything work in this world isnt so spetacular: like money goes to who have money, education go to who are more smart, works go to who works more, spits go to who are more in disgrace and so on and so on...