Even most of my time comes in church, I always make sure that I have also a good performance in school. Every school year ends or whenever every quarter ends I always get an award. I am afraid to failed because of the high expectations of the people around me. I always give my best, but sometimes it's very tired to be a perfect one. My weakness is to make them disappointed. I know I am just a typical student, I just want to know on being a good student.
In house, trying to become a good sister and a good daughter to my parents. But sometimes the one they sees is my mistake. I can't express who I'm really are. I forgot myself. The real me, my true identity. I'm like an worm hiding with its cocoon. I hope someday I become a butterfly who can fly where ever she wants to go. A butterfly who always sees its beauty by others not her imperfections before when she was an hungry worm.
I woke up and brushed my teeth. I eat my breakfast, fast as I could do. I opened the faucet, I touch the water, so cold. Then, I take a bath every pour of the water I can't stop my teeth to gritted. After that, I wear my uniform. I smiled when I saw my elementary uniform. I check my wristwatch, it's already five o'clock and fifty five minutes in the morning and I have only fifteen minutes to arrive in school.
When I enter the room I heard my classmates murmuring about the releasing of card this afternoon. I sigh. I'm so nervous for the result for our third quarter ranking. I pray to God that let me became on top on the class again. My deep thinking stop when my classmate asked me if who will get on my report card. I answered her with a smile, and I says that my mother and father the one who will get. And she became amazed "Whoo. Really?" she asked. I just nod. I'm happy that time because this is the first time wherein they'll get my card with the two of them.
It's already time when I got home, I saw my mother and father are well-dressed. They say goodbye. It's already three o'clock in the afternoon when they arrived home. I run to them with a smile. But that smile fade away, when I saw their eyes. They asked me what happened to my grade, why I can't retain my rank. Their fiercy eyes makes me kill little by little. I just look away. My mother scolded me, I fold my fist. I can't take it anymore. I also shout with her and asking her why she can't see all of my efforts. All I know I do my best. But didn't reach in their expectation. I feel down, she look at me and she says "I don't want you to be a perfect one, all I want is consistency. I'm became angry because I know you can do better than this. " Those line make me feel bad, she's right. My parents is always right. They not finished their school, that's why they want me to be better not to be a perfect.
That night, I feel guilty. All I act is being an immature and I didn't respect them as my parents. They have an ambition with me I can't blame them. Now, I understand. I feel bad, I will say sorry with them tomorrow and I let them know what I feel.
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