Only quite recently I've found the confidence to say that I am an artist. Art has always been an indispensable part of my life. All my life I have revelled in poetry, novels, films, music, paintings, architecture... Today, I'm sharing with you my beginnings - how and when I turned to making art. Since then, it has become an important part of my life: writing and painting is my outlet, my meditation, my sanctuary, my remedy.
My notebooks
My French phase has never ended, tbh
I started with small scribbles, then I dedicated notebooks to scribbles and poetry compilations. It took me a while (4 years lol) to put my work out there - everything I've done from practices to experiments. Since then, magic has happened. I found more and more inspiration to do what I love. I see art everywhere I go. That's when it dawned on me - I am an artist, despite me having no paper to prove that. I am an artist, and no one can take that away from me. I am an artist, because I've always been. I've found so much strength in enjoying at art and even more - in making art.
When I started drawing in my style:
I think I only have a distinct style when it comes to a certain technique, I'm still out different mediums
I used to distance myself from the name - artist. When I thought like that, I regarded every drawing just a practice. I failed to see then what I see now - I am in every line of those drawings. And every drawing and painting is a reflection. Especially, looking at my poetry-sketch notebooks: I see so much 'me' there that it's overwhelming. I basically spilt myself all over the pages of these notebooks. I was too damn emotional. Still am.
Emotions are my drive, my force. Now, not only I pour emotions in my paintings, but I get a huge flood of positive vibes back. It nourishes me. I've come to realize that every time I paint, I connect to my realest, truest self. It is easy to lose yourself in routine, responsibilities, and anxiety. When you meditate, you can come to the point where you find the centre of your whole being - the beautiful, calming garden. Writing, painting, reading poetry that moves me, listening to music that makes me want to sing - all art; art brings me back to my sacred garden.
I hope you find inspiration in what I tell you. I hope that you, too, can see that being an artist is not for the chosen ones. If you create something, and pour your heart in it, you are an artist. Just keep creating!