Through my artistic path I have received thousands of compliments about my abilities and what i can create. Most of those compliments had a word- Talent in them. I agree, there is some part of natural ability, but it is not the most important thing i think.
What i have experienced and what i have felt through all of this time was an incredibly strong passion for art. For the creative process itself. Thinking process,planning etc. Going through every hour of just sitting and drawing,but having a blast every minute of it! Going to a place where I can fly away anywhere i want,yet at the same time it could take me away somewhere i have never been before. It takes you where it wants and you can not control it. That is if you actually 100% open up to it. Embrace it i could say. I have to be honest. And in my blog here,my first blog ever i have tried to be honest. I have laughed and i have cried too while creating. That is how much being an artist means to me. How much it has impacted me.
I have never actually felt 100% connected with the world outside. Always at the end of the day i wanted to go somewhere. I was just sitting at home,creating my own games. To be honest,i have never actually played a game with someone when i was a child. Of course i played hide and seek with my friends,football etc. Friends wanting me to go and play, but it never gave me a feeling of happiness. I still had something missing. I even played basketball for many many years. Which is the only thing from sports i do not regret doing. I love basketball. I had this dream of being like Kobie one day,play in the NBA. The coach also said i have some talent,i could go far. I liked to travel from town to town playing too. I loved that. But then i quit doing it. I knew it can be a hobby, but not a carrier.
Usually after games i came home and was just sitting and talking to myself. I remember when i was a kid,i had a tennis ball,because i loved tennis, and i was playing a game.
I stepped around 10 or 20 m from the wall and threw the ball against it and when it hit back I had to run and stop it,like a goalkeeper. I mean, that was the game! Because at that time,it was the only way i could do it without another person,which is what i wanted. I remember being a kid and playing floorball with my friend in a garage. After 10 minutes i said he can go:D I just had my own thoughts and i did not want anyone to ruin them. So i was throwing the ball against the wall for like 5 hours and my neibhours were were looking at me through their window and i guess they thought i was crazy. I felt that anyway afterwards. But i never gave up,i created so many games which you can play alone,i still remember them.
I will never forget a quote i heard from Rowan Atkinson,in an interview where he spoke about his life and when he was a youngster at a church school. He said that does not need a company of friends to enjoy himself. This sentence really sticked with me and i will never forget it.
Since i started to create art i have been learning,trying to figure out what is right for me and through everything i found a clearer vision. I found something where i can be on my own. A place to be,a home. I guess art is my home.
I wish for everyone to seek deep within yourself and to find that passion which will outwork any talent,any money,power etc.
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