Exiting the most existential in existence of meaning! Exuberance over the ecstatic nature of etching my life in perfect pitch. Go to know the dissonances well. Good to go, won't say oh well, for I know very well, the meme of miming. To sing along in chiming, then add a flip side to the dissonant note. Won't be missing the haze rituals, detox western culture, out of the choke, to a better joke. The better whine from the bitter vine, so next line I change my mind a note. Say it better, in a different way, knowing that I could say it wrong or be misunderstood many times.
The creeps, the crawlers, the brawlers, the distracto trollers. The con-trollers. The trolls. Under the bridge of your soul, they may seem as a simple innocent man or a macho type. They both get on and off from hype. Don't feed the trolls. The religion trolls, the science trolls, the education trolls, the big Pharma trolls, the cheap advertisement insulting your intelligence on t.v. trolls. What would a true revolution be!? A simulated troll mortal combat with the safety protocols taken off. The hazers inflict so they would submit to the ultimate embarrassment. When you tell a joke you can take seriously, their argument will fall.
I gather my spirits, my fighter sprites, wisdom to be vital alive, though traumatized, from the shock of a cartoon arrogance from the vibe of the paranoid society consumer culture world of known. A new wave of way has been going on, others have seen the stride of helping each other be right for there own selves. Instead of just for yourself, you build yourself up first, may need help in ways, yet you get on to build up. To tell stories in ways that give meaning and significance to existence within being, being alive with others. Know the true history, not a slanted version.
How many versions of reality are there!? What am I perceiving, how do I know what I know. So many times talking to myself, distracted by work, dragged away from your dreams, prolonging writing your thoughts out, I could never stand it, always had to make a break, not take a break. Always on the job, of thinking. Felt stuck, alone at times, yet always had the true yearning, hunger, passion for connection. Never have to succumb to let that go! No! And keep the questions you want to have a satisfying answer to! If you have a good question and get bullshit answers you probably have a good question.
Yes it takes times of talking and going on to start to connect with my own head. To feel some feelings, if you have lack of connection you may want to reach out, yet no one you know may have the ability, they are too busy being distracted by entertainments and busy with work too! Still hold onto that connective passion, to have the interest in life, ask questions and have an open ear to others thoughts, feelings, and questions.
So yea, I'm going alright lately. Still busy helping family out, living life, I seem to be having a better time. Taking awhile to move more of the music stuff into the routine, it has started! There are a few little demo somethings recently made I want to mash together and try to make something out of. If it doesn't work out I will still release the experiment. I'm feeling content setting up and working on the sound whenever possible. I try to feel energized for the activity. Get into the right mind set. Sounding a little industrial kinda, not trying to do that really it's just what I do. Sometimes you just need sound. You need sounds to listen to. Sounds that will wake you up and that you can get feeling from. I feel the pull and push to do that. I need that therapeutic resonance in my life.