The weekend is done for me. Feeling somewhat better now, although had a sore throat earlier. Some more of the compound stress with the fam over work. They got sick too, overworked, now having some problems with quality and pay cause as usual we were rushed. So back to that stress getting sick time. We gotta get out of it! Have a new job to start tomorrow to. It's good we have work now and we must take it. We must not overwork either cause that slows us down and makes us ill.
I don't want to be in a stress turmoil pit. I want to keep rocking. All these pressures from all sides..can be suffocating, like you can't move. Felt that for a very long time. Feeling overwhelmed. All these ridiculous circumstances and people acting stupid. You know the situation is dire yet no one seems to act like it. That's when I realize I don't have time for all this other stuff. Stop the distractions that take from the vision. It's been a hard time being able to be by myself and concentrate yet the overworking situations are isolating. Then no consumerist version of fun will suffice. No stupid fun aloud. Get back to the real life.
So now I just want to get through this time alright. I'm feeling a bit tired and weary too. Don't want to let it get the best of me. I always figure it's been a long time coming. Worth the wait, the work, the struggle, the inspiration. I will keep my brain active, keep reading, practicing the crafts, be social when I can. The weather is kind of picking up too. I should be able to get out more and clear my head.
Now to ride this wave of work, try to make the best of it. Been locked in that long sometimes grim situation. Stuck in this culture. It seems scary and oppressive. The paranoid society makes me sick. The current economic model is stupid. Time to give 'em what for and get out of it . Find new ways of living and relating. Know the alternate ways and means of inherent value. We all have value way beyond the false money paradigm.
Alright, going to bed now, into next week! Will keep my energy going! Start something up!!
