Repressed Memories
Oil on Canvas
36 x 48 inches
2019
“It was in 2016 when she was finally able to see what’s haunting her. And surprise… they are an army. Of course, they all said HI.”
-hiddenblade, from the story “Not Alone”
The human mind has always been mysterious and complex. Throughout time, humans have been understanding how thoughts could affect behaviors, how the environment could affect thoughts, how even the intangible can affect the physical body.
From the moment we learn how powerful the mind could be, we begin the journey of exploring and understanding our own thoughts. We find the place in our minds where all the deepest darkest secrets are kept safe. We find different versions of ourselves. We find chaos.
Through the journey, we meet the black and white voices that tell us our regret and melancholy over and over again. An endless cycle of painful reminders.
By opening our eyes, we learn that we can control how we perceive these things. We can put colors to the painful drawings and scratches around. We can turn the chaotic skies into the color of tranquility and healing. Carrying the flower of growth, we can position ourselves at the center and lead these voices.
These voices inside our heads are powerful. They can make us the best versions of ourselves or destroy us. These weaknesses can be turned to strengths. They can be overwhelming but we have the control. Are we going to join them or tame the beasts? Are we going to sing the noise of sorrow or the music of joy? Are we going to fight them or befriend them? We always have the decision.
I choose to embrace them.
They never go away.