Good for you for getting some paints and finding a way to express your feelings. Any kind of creative endeavour is good for the psychi. I hope you keep painting and posting when you can-I also wonder what kind of influence it will be on your kids. I say that because now as a middle aged adult I have felt bummed that my mum did not pursue her art. As a kid she got some small awards and obviously had talent (both of my brothers have artistic talent but gave it up) I feel more bummed that they didn't keep up any kind of creative work more because I believe it would have helped them out emotionally. Maybe one of your kids will think back and be proud and happy for you for doing this.