This painting has been in progress for...I think about 6 weeks.
Not because it took 6 weeks to complete but because I hit obstacles. One being my near "successful" suicide attempt that landed me in a hospital for a week and another being trying to figure out how to line up her hair with the skull. I also was adding bugs at one point but scrapped the bug idea for the red. I thought it looked perfect meeting with the hair in the middle.
I literally almost died while in the process of finishing this piece.
This painting has so much of myself in it. Not only is it a self portrait but it tackles mortality and death something I think about often. The fact that I was minutes away from dying while it was in progress only adds to how much it means to me. This painting will always remind me of that time and even though it may look morbid and sure it IS morbid for me it is a positive thing. A reminder of how I nearly ended my life when I will end up dead soon enough. A look into what's beneath my flesh. I love this painting. That being said if you love it and want to offer to buy it let me know. I am running out of room on my walls. Until someone really, really wants it and offers what I feel it is worth however it will live on my walls with the rest of my work. Perhaps, I can offer affordable prints though.
Here are the works in progress.
I took it from there to the final painting:
I believe the size is 18 x 24 but it may be a bit bigger. I will check later and update this blog. It is acrylic on stretched canvas. I mostly love the outcome although there is one spot that got fudged due to accidentally smearing gold paint and having to try to fix it. Aside from that which may or may not be tweaked -probably not- I think it is my favorite painting to date. I hope you enjoyed the peek inside of my process and my morbid mind.
