I'm not a writer so keep this in mind before criticizing me about my writing :) but, something I need to get off my mind and this is my only way as I really don't have anyone to talk to that would even understand a little about whats going on deep within myself. But, something deep within me has changed I don't feel like me and this is why my art has gone none existent pretty much. I'm not sad and I'm not depressed something is just missing and I feel it. I am 35 years old and I have had some tough times in my life. Times that should have broken me but didn't and in those moments I have never felt what I'm feeling now. It's like I'm in an "I don't know phase" I don't have a solid answer what is going on with me. I just feel completely numb and empty. The person that made me "me" is gone and I'm just a empty shell! I really don't know how to explain this or even put into words really it's very hard but I feel like a part of 'my soul is gone and I'm constantly questioning why but I have no answers to any of this. So daily I just sit and stare into nothing I guess I have finally lost myself!!! Michelle has checked out!
