Have you ever been thinking about where your destiny will take you in life, would you end up being a family person with a lot of kids and married to the person you (think you) love or a loner with nobody to tell your story after you leave this world? Although I am a teenager and only sixteen years old, I often think about what will my life look like in the future. Would I get a chance to make my dreams come true when it comes to my career or love life? Will I find someone who will love me and take care of me? Or that's just what's not written for me in this life?
From a very young age, I found myself having different opinions from the most of the kids I went to school and hanged out with. I was always a part of groups but I have never had the exact same opinion as the people I was in that groups. When the girls of my generation started dating, I started writing, when they had established serious relationships, I was starting to earn money online which was so odd to everyone. What I want to say is that I always loved to work alone, and I just hated it when there were group projects for school etc. It's not that I didn't like that people, it's just that I was feeling more comfortable being alone. Everywhere. I found awesome hobbies and things I really enjoy doing. I found myself in writing and programming (information technology) but will I find myself in another person?
Now, that I am getting in the late teen years, I find myself constantly thinking if I will ever find the right person.
Someone who will understand my sarcasm and not get offended by it, someone who will stay when I say 'Leave me alone' and someone who will kiss my scars and not try to pretend there aren't any.
Maybe, I am looking for too much and that could be my problem. I am not scared to be lonely currently, but I am scared I will grow old alone and that thought makes me anxious. But I really don't want to get into relationship or marriage in the future where I don't feel like that's it .
What would be your opinion on this topic?
Is it better to be alone than with someone you don't think is the right person for you?