Hi :) This is like my perspective. I used to think in terms of 'to have'. To have success, to have skills, to have a good job, etc... Or you may change the word to 'achieve'. But in the end is always the by product I seek. The by product of hard-work, the by product of study, the by product of discipline. What I mean is I used to seek the end of the path and not to walk the path itself. So I questioned myself just as you do. And the answer is always the same. The key is to enjoy the ride not the goal. Enjoy the process. Focus on working and practice. The more time you invest, the better you'll become and faster. Any change we seek in the world, irremediably comes from within us first, and is the hardest part. When looking for quality there's nothing better than to study. And study is 80% of the time tedious haha. But pays off big time. Also I value time to spend with family, friends and mostly alone. Because these experiences also play an important role in the things we express through art.

So don't push yourself too hard, just learn to let go and flow. I just looked at your blog and there are these pencil sketches that are so flowy and beautiful, really cool. The pencil work is so loose and relaxed yet strong and expressive. So you have that flowy thing inside. Those sketches tell. I wish to see more of those. Also they are very storytelling inclined. Awesome! Hugs my fiend :)