Once upon a time i was very cool, calm, simple, hardworking and most importantly a disciplined guy. My all activity right from morning till bed night was very disciplined, i was very determined in all aspect of my life, i had a clear vision, but from last couple of years particularly after 2014, my life has taken a complete U turn. I got perished at the very early stage of my life. I dont really know what went wrong with me, such a sudden and hammered down fall. why ? why ? why ?. I have asked millions times these to me. But never got the answer.
I am unable to find the fault and that is the reason why i am unable to solve the problems of my life. I have been suffering each and every second. If i wish to sleep, i am unable to do so, if i want to have some food, i am unable to so, i have become weak and most importantly i have become impatient, patience has disappeared from my life. Please anybody help me, i am reeling through severe depressions. I dont really know what should i do. I just want to have some penny to feed my stomach, i am really feeling hungry, i dont know since when i have not taken food properly. My health has also been degraded, and my mind is also unhealthy at the moment.
If i am trying to practice yoga to become stable, i am unable to, if i am trying something i dont know why my mind is looking for a sudden result and i know very well that is never possible. Everything needs time. Is it the end of my existence, my identity or in other words, am i approaching the end of my existence ?. I dont really know. In fact where the destiny will take me is uncertain !! Oh God please help me to get out of such a situation. I want to be back to a normal life.
Please steemian help me.