Do faster oscillations between hope and fear forelight major positivity-upside this year?

This phase on Earth feels more and more like a fractal, everything is mirrored in everything else. My inner state is as volatile as the crypto markets or the future outlook of most people, making wild swings trying to understand what is taking place from inside the mysterious theatre of life that is going crazy all around us...

Ideas clash with actuality, then actuality shows everything is going well compared to the mind's narrative of despair. And the inner state flips to golden again, for a while before it surrenders once more. Oscillations. Faster and faster.

This must be the sensation of being manic, though I feel it's more a sign of the times than an individual malady. The tide is turning and maybe there is high hope on the horizon, I suspect it more and more. Like a friend said the other day: "Here we are, sitting outside in the sunshine, and enjoying self-baked cake. If this is the end of the world or world war 3, things are looking pretty amazing actually!"

And they do.

All the more reason that these internal mood swings are becoming so apparent. Despite all the bleak world stage prognoses I can't help but feel somehow close to a major revelation of positivity. One that is long overdue. Ego can't quite trust it but the sensation is persistent and so even the ego recognizese that not all is grim. A major balancing for all the despair of 2020.

No matter what happens, 2021 will continue to be a wild ride and I have a feeling there are many more surprises in store, and much less materialization of all the worst case scenarios the mind has found to be likely. We ought not to give the horror scenarios more importance than they deserve. Not to close our eyes but also not pretend that it's all over already. It isn't. Reminder to self ;)

If we have a choice in the matter might as well go with positivity as much as we can, even and especially when in doubt. I can't help but feel that we somehow influence the outcome that way more than we realize... and help to build the world we would like to live in, on Earth.