Was it worth it? I'd have to say yes. I've always felt like an extra piece to a puzzle. It seems obvious that there is a place for me, but I never seem to fit anywhere. I so badly just want to have a job. I feel like such a piece of shit that my roommate gave me this chance and I've failed so hard. I don't deserve it. Earlier I overheard a conversation I don't think I was supposed to hear. My roommates girlfriend was expressing consern over why I didn't have a job yet. He defended me with it's not like I wasn't trying. Which is complete truth, I'm on indeed, Glassdoor, leafbuyer, Craigslist, ect. everyday. I'm filling out every application I think there is even the slightest of chance I'd be hired. At what point does 100% effort still not enough. Put the shoe on the other foot I know I'd probably have the same feeling by now. I don't know what to do anymore, I've risked everything for a better life. Even if I hadn't I'd hate myself for the rest of what would of been the same misserable life I once lived. I really just wanted to say one last time before my internet access ends up cut off, I love you guys and I love Steemit. This is one place I could of fit, I just don't have enough time to get to that point. I'll miss you guys, and I'm sorry.
