I never thought myself as a figure of leader at all. Throughout all the educational and professional period, I probably have been studying and working in my comfort zone where all my deliverables can be confirmed by someone else. I hated insecurity so very much preferred learning or working with someone I can trust. How comfortable it is when you have a belief that there always are someone else who can fix your answer. Fortunately, for a while, I had that great resources around me, Great tutors, friends, and all the project leaders that I worked with.
No, that was so unfortunate of me. I shouldn’t have stayed in that comfort zone. I shouldn’t have waited for their great answers. And most importantly, I should have thrown lots of questions to those great answers. Instead, I lost how to set my career goal at some point and quit my job without any hesitation. I couldn’t grow up anymore because I wasn’t ready to voice up.
Now I am working in a start-up with a bunch of novices. No one can be said to be an expert here. Even greater that there are barely an epitome of a great business model or a success story in the industry. All the companies in the business are struggling to be the success of tomorrow. Among all the strivers, I am working with my colleagues to set the business strategy here in BlockchainOS. With shortage of resources and guides, I’ve become in charge of training global community managers. I couldn’t even afford the luxury to hesitant about it. For the past one week, I managed to do the task! Omg, it was the first leadership role that I’ve been have in my entire life.
I still feel insecure and do not have any great career goal yet, but now I am so excited. Yay!