Remember when you first chatted me and introduced me to Steemit? That was when the magical friendship started right? I knew we have that friendship-spark when we finally decided to meet over a cup of coffee. You introduced me to Steemit, I introduced you to pole –that was just a small part among so many other things that we talked about. I could remember how we laughed about how seemingly different we are but our minds just connect magically (sorry for overusing the word magic here). I love how passionate and motivated you are. It brought back the fire of my fresh-grad-idealism that was slowly weakened by the bustles of "adulting" and corporate life.
When I saw you last night in the “official” first day of your pole journey, I was worried because I can see the disappointment in your eyes. Maybe you had a hard time getting all the tricks? You told me your self-esteem was hurt. To be honest, I was hurt too. I was hurt because I didn’t want you to feel that way. I was hurt because I remembered the very first day I went to the class alone, with very little confidence and so much frustrations about myself. I could remember how intimidated and insecure I was with all the other confident girls and their mighty strength, flying around the pole. Instead of enjoying pole, it was three (or four) months of anxiety and mild-self-hate. I didn’t like those moments. I was worried you will feel the same. I sincerely hope you didn’t and you never will.
So on my way home last night, I made this little promise to myself that I will do my best so you will have a better experience as a “beginner student” in pole class. My anxiety and lack of patience back then brought me series of injuries that stalled my progress. I don’t want you to go through that. It took me time to gain friends in the studio because I saw everyone as a threat. I was filled with insecurities. I don’t want you to feel that way.
I want you to enjoy every moment of self-discovery. I’m not saying you should take it easy (coz gurl we gonna train yo ass real hard yo gonna beg foh mercy haha), but I will do my best to make this “phase” of the journey a better experience for you, than it was for me. Babe, you got yourself a bigger-pole-sister.
I want to end this with a short video I compiled of my first four months in pole and the recent training videos I have. The first video is when I first learned how to climb. The second one was when I first learned how to invert.
Stay motivated, focus on your goals, and never forget to celebrate little victories - in pole, and in life.
Love,