I’m at a better place now ... this was about 15 years ago when I was dealing with a lot .... and didn’t know how to handle it .....now ... I have learned that I need to handle things on my own....I’ve learned not to rely on anyone for emotional support .... I recently developed a wonderful relationship with someone I truly trusted .... and unfortunately that friendship didn’t last ....so now I’m back to relying on myself. Doing what I need to do to make sure my kids and I are doing well ... that’s my focus