I can relate to so much of this. The blank memories, the missing years and years. I never realized that people could generally remember before age nine until I was in my late teens and it somehow came up. That was the first hint I ever had that something was different about me.

All of the behavior, the early sexual activity, low self esteem... I'm not even sure at THIS age how much of me is ME and how much of me is due to my childhood trauma.

Thank you for being so real, so raw with your story.

I hope you can find healing.