Hello Hive account@andyalaby👐 really enjiy to read your post again, thanks to macoolette😉 she has featured you again and I hope tgat you will find your best interest and be an expert with that.

One step at a time.. you gave so many things in your list and you can learn from anyone here in Steemit, you are so young. That's good to keep a hope to leave your country.. but I think, leave your country later for vacation and do your best now to share your daily life and experience😉.

I cried because O had no shoes until I saw a man who had no feet ♢Author Unknown♢

Focussing on the unfairness of circumstance keeps you comparing yourself with others ratger than appreciating your own special uniqueness. You have come out of your shell.. and be prepared to face the world. You're doing good and thanks to your grandmother.. you must be inherits her talents too. So how is she?