Oohh so sorry to hear that, forgive me for my ignorance😢 that's why you mentioned about someone who always supporting you from heaven.

And she must be proud of you now, if you keep on your way to continue what you're best at. You're young and do exploring the talents that lived in your blood, no matter how bad is your country situation.. there's always silver lining in the dark cloud and the storm days will be over too.

Keep your head up and do your best!