Stressed that word basically summarizes how I feel right now and it is also what pushed me into making this blog/story(IDK what its called). Maybe I am thinking that If I wrote how I feel somehow I would relieve some of the pressure I am feeling right now. I've been meaning to make a content on the internet for a long time now, never been able to do it primarily because I was indecisive on what kind of content I would want to make. Maybe this unnerving feeling of mine pushed me finally to make an effort. I also feel that maybe if someone reads this they can somehow give me advice or help.
Before I go around telling why I am stressed I'll give you a bit of my background and maybe you'll get the gist of why I am feeling this right now. Based on my title you can infer that I am an immigrant. I'm currently residing in Canada and I landed here on February of this year from the currently controversial country of the Philippines. I am 22 years old and an alumni of the oldest university in Asia University of Santo Tomas with a degree in Management Accounting. I am currently trying to get a certificate of Accounting administration and payroll in a fairly dubious college in the city I'm currently staying in.
Now that I have given a bit of my background I guess it about time I explain why I feel stressed right now. Well to be honest there is a lot of factor that is currently contributing to how I feel right now, but to sum it up what triggered me to being so pressured right now is the fact that I read somewhere that the college where I am currently trying to pursue a certificate in for is a fairly shady and dubious institution. I never really bothered to do a background check about where I am currently studying in because I was referred here by my own mother, but I happen to see an ad of the said school in Facebook and a lot of people are saying negative things about it. Add to the fact that some other students have told me certain stories of how hard it is to get for the graduates to get jobs. Those factors slowly and gradually seeped in to me and made me think that I may not be able to get a job even if I finish this. The thought of not getting a job and the fact that I had to get a student loan to go here is making me feel like a pressure cooker, and looking at my bank account right now is just making me all too depressed.
Now that I have pondered about my situation I am currently thinking of ways to get out of this trench. I was thinking of applying for a job on my field of business but frankly even though I finished my course in Management Accounting with a fairly good marks I am feeling that It won't matter as its not really recognized here. I feel that it's as if I haven't even finished high-school here. Checking online job sites didn't help too, seeing that entry level jobs wanted me to have 2-3 years worth of experience (how would you get it then D: ). Other plans I have right now is probably applying for some gadget retail store like Bestbuy since I do enjoy being surrounded by tech, or I was really planning for a long time on trying out Youtube, but somewhere I felt that my personality is not that entertaining and I won't have the quality to make it in that scene. I tried streaming too but my computer and internet can't handle the load so thats not an option for me.
I'm so desperate that when I saw the word recruiting I got so excited then I saw it was for kfc. I vowed never to work in fastfood again ever since I resigned from McDonalds a couple of months ago. It was the worse experience I've ever had people screaming at you all the time it didn't matter if you were doing it fast, right, wrong whatever they will just make you go faster until you can't anymore.
That's all I have to say I guess. I have to admit writing this story made me feel a little bit better. I do hope someone is able to at least read this and give me some advice. I don't know how interesting it is to be honest. This is my first time writing here. I would also like some criticisms and comments on the organization of my thoughts since I know that I am not that good in expressing what I am thinking. I would probably write more stuffs like this if I ever have something I want to talk about.