Sometimes i get so scared, i feel like the stigma of being a young parent in Canada weighs heavy on me and my family. A one year old, a baby due within a week and what do i have? A ‘99 sunfire, a cellphone about 700$ in cryptoinvestments an 80$ steem account and have had no results from my job hunting which scares me in regards to rent next month.
Im worried, because although we literally starve ourselves to make sure River has literally every single thing a baby needs and all the stuff to prep for baby too. We have to worry about the fact that im on antidepressants and medical marijuana.
Ive had people threaten to call cps on me because i smell like weed and am holding my son. So ive basically quit using my medicine and have been avoiding that particular addition to the previously mentioned stigma.
I would literally die for my family. Like no joke wouldnt think twice.
But im drowning, the debt, the struggle, the physical pain. How am i supposed to crawl my way out when all anybody ever does is ask for things? I give and give and somehow people keep taking and my hole grows.
Im jaded, i know, but im optimistic, i see bright beautiful futures ahead and im ecstatic. But reality keeps hitting me in the face. Broke down car here, medical charge there.
I dont know, i vent, im to stubborn to really ask for any help. But i havent eaten a real meal in days, mashed potatoes, ichiban, coffee and cigarettes. But we have diapers. We have baby food galore. Milk and eggs. I want to be successful i want to show the world what im capable of i want to be a father worth respecting an a dad worth loving.
When i look into my sons big beautiful blue eyes i see so much hope, i see wonder and love. I see somebody who sees the real me and it drives me. I hope that drive can translate here.
I want to educate people on what they really need to know about crypto, like the fact i hold ada and srn not for market value or anything oter than the fact when the finney phone comes out i plan on doing an unboxing video and a tutorial and using the hell out of this phone.
Like the world of crypto is so vast, and anybody who doesnt have time to surf trough the words can ask me to elp them decipher if the investment will be successful but more importantly useful in the real world.
I am DizzyJay, follow me
I will reply to real questions, i will support real goals. Im here for community, bew friends and new directions. As my family evolves so too will my blogging. As i grow more wise so too shall my words to you.
I will not skimp. I will not post useless unimportant issues.
I will post love and transparency, knowledge is power. In math we trust.
Much love!
I hope to see some new comments and fresh faces on my blog!
If you need anything or have a job that i could do for your business, i will research and write for you. Just be honest and open about what you need and i will reciprocate.
I want to throw a few more pictures of my son and myself on here. This is me. I know its not alot but im dead serious about my intentions here, steemit is my social media home.
Lets chase our dreams together!
#steemian4life
