Absolutely scary. Look, prison, whichever way you put it, it's a violent place, right? It's a great equalizer in many ways, where it doesn't matter who you are or where you come from or how much money you have in your bank account or how poor or homeless you are. It's a great equalizer.
We all sleep in the same place. We all eat the same food. We all have the same limit of $360 a month that we can spend on commissary, and we are all subject to the same arbitrary rules set forward by the warden.
So it's a great equalizer. But my first day there was hard. I mean, to say the least, I cried for the first, I guess, couple of hours.
I just sat in the pot that they give you. And it's just, you know, you walk into this place, you never thought you'd be there. And saying goodbye to your family and loved ones is like tearing a piece of your heart.
It's just so difficult to even express the feeling. But it is not a fun experience. I had all these thoughts in my head that were just absolutely crazy.
Like, I've come here to probably die here or something along those lines, because it's just that kind of environment where you're just, you don't know what to expect. I was scared. Obviously, I don't know any of these people.
And as time goes by, you start to understand the dynamic and how certain people are, and I guess you build some level of relationships. And it becomes almost, for a comparison, imagine you're a group of frat bros in a rundown, shitty camp for the summer. You know, that's pretty what it comes down to.
It's not nice. It's not good. But when you cross paths into the shoe, that's when it really becomes a problem, right? Because now we're talking this prison.
