Hi, guys!
So, I must say that I reached the moment when I nearly give up. Seems like my mental disorder is winning me this time (and by the way that's the main reason why there was no video last week - I just can't step over my anxiety).
Yesterday in the evening I talked to my husband and said that I'm feeling worse and worse, and have no idea what to do. Well, it's obvious what I should do - I must visit my doctor again, tell her, what's happening, then restart my psychotherapy program again ect. But the thing is - is such state even if you realize what you should do you feel paralyzed. Even at the moment, writing this post and technically knowing that I must pick up the phone, register for doctor's appointment I feel so twisted and this feeling in my hands - my fingers just live with a separate life, I can't control them.
I also know that I should stand up, take Astro, take my skate and just spend at least a few time outside, but it's so hard to even get out of bed. Bed becomes a hiding place when you feel high anxiety level. And often you keep yourself safe with oversleeping.
I hope I'll manage to take the phone and just make doctor's appointment. First step, huh?
I wish you all the best and will be happy if you'll support me with vote:)
Love, Inber
