If you're just finding my blog, you might be wondering if all I ever do is bake and leave inspirational notecards everywhere I go. It might look that way. The reality is that I'm a stay at home mom of twins. And that ish is hard! I struggle with anxiety, depression and ptsd. My days are mostly filled with toddler tantrums, poopy diapers, making food and cleaning messes.
The only way I can keep myself sane is to find outlets for my pain and emotions. I don't often feel that letting myself stay in a dark place is helpful for me. Instead I like to express whatever emotion it is in a positive way. If possible. So far, the only things that have helped lessen the burden I feel are:
✨ Steemit
I have found a purpose here and I'm determined to contribute whatever I can to it.
✨ The notecard thing helps me cope with anxiety being out in public. The messages I write are usually more for myself, things I need to hear that day. Leaving them for others to find and possibly brighten their day, I'll never apologize for that. And I'll keep sharing when I do because it's important to set an example. Kindness is practiced. Kindness can be learned.
✨ Art
Making digital art helps me clear my head when the thoughts are too much. I share them with you because it's part of who I am.
✨ Baking
I'm damn good at baking. It calms me and plus, there's sugar.
These are the sorts of things you're gonna find on my blog. Along with seemingly random stuff. Like my progress with learning how to code, or my random challenge of the day. The random challenges are my way of getting to know the people who are reading my blogs. I don't get to spend as much time as I'd like reading other people's content, but I do try. I want to get to know all of you just as you're getting to know me by reading my stuff.
So, yup...
This week I've been struggling with trying to stay positive. My sleep has been wonky and I just feel tired. I think the rain might have something to do with my mood. I always get this way when we don't see the sun for a few days. I've been trudging along with my Google code challenge.
I haven't had much time to sit down and do the lessons, but so far I'm on lesson #3. There are 12 lessons to complete in 12 weeks, so I would say I'm going at a pretty good pace. I'm going to cut myself some slack and not beat myself up about it because I have made progress! Up until today, I had been sort of coding along with the video. Pausing the screen as the instructor typed a chunk of code and then manually typing it myself. Today I tried to see if I could write the correct code before I watched the video. At first, I couldn't. But a few lines in, it clicked. I finished the rest of the lesson successfully without looking at the answers first. That felt pretty good.
And now I have laundry to finish, dishes to put away and kids to pick up from preschool in about an hour. How is everyone else doing today?
Thanks for reading! Love and light...
