just if u dont read my stuff. A move to Canada from Norway in January this year.
long story short my life has been pretty hard. this tripp is my trying to find my home/ my purpose.
so my job.
its ok but its total ruins me this is noting new to me. my last work did the same.
meaning when am there a spent 150% of my battery just been there.
so when am not at work a just broken cant do anything so them am just here in Canada to get the $$
and this is not the plan the plan was to go to fint a place a can call home. or start the journey, find a family.
on my way home to day. nice sky..:)
a cant say a hate it but its not far off. am struggling on my speaking am so in my head cant shake it. so worry over doing mistakes so am spending a ton of extra time, and still doing mistakes. my friends now a speak good English no problem there, but fore some reason am in a hole at work. forgetting words all the time. mt
new Associates think my English is bad.
its devastating for me. a almost not tacking to my co workers. this feels very bad and here is the worst thing about it all. when a go home
a have 0 energy not eating good just broken..its the combo of everything a feel a do not now if a can go on there.
a did this fore my last 7 years. my job was all a did was never social outside work or not 100% true my last 2 years in Norway was better but it took
a just want to Digg Trials meet new people. a was so eager to getting my visum extended but a dot matter if a
do not like my time here. a have lost 20 years of my life. a cant get it back a Ned to start living my life a cant do this to my self.
but up in all of this attlest my work, like me a do not understand way but the do. or the say the do.
one of the boss told my yesterday. and the put me up to 100% position but a have ask to get 3 days off and shore days to see if its help me. just got and sms form her.
not very positive to my question. a dont now what i can do a feel like a Ned to quit.
its not like am desperate on the $$
a have a flat in Oslo am renting out
so a ned 500$ to go on 0 but a have my croypto and my savings so technically
a dont even Ned to work.
this is how a feel it to day
so a just want to have a small job 2-3 days a week max. and then a can work on my social life
if all goes tho shit a can just sell my flat in Norway. a live only one time so do not matter is its a good plan or not.
if am 80 years old and have $$$ but see back on my life and ist just a mess like my last 20 years.
but a am desperate on finding something a like in my life. its a some
things a like but on the "big scale its noting"
anyway.......sorry on the formatting am just rating this out....