A think a need to start planning my rambel a bit better so its short or random one, Just got home after a long day its 11 hours day. Not really ready to make a long post. Btw Work is going very well am out of training mode. One of the team :)
"crow on a wire"
Am been talking a bit to a colleague he told me to day he "divorced" his parents 12 years ago. Have not spoken to them sins best thing he ever done he told me. It's a bit different story than mine his father was self-medication all is life and was a very bad home.
But make me thinking on mine parents to. We are not on the same page at all and a feel we will never be its hard on me, a relay want to explain to ho a am, but a now a can't my mother always going to turn it around it make me feel bad on here fault, but a now it was there fault of not 100% but she did not believe herself and fuck me up when a was a kid. If u never reading my stuff make no sense but its a ramble blog so. shoot me ;)
Sierra the store dog. not the best photo but.
All this thinking happen after a came to work to day and my hair was all over the place Ned a hair cut soon. He was saying just take it all. My answer is a cant a have a big scar in my head. After a got brain surgery when a was a kid My parents and the health system was thinking a was brain damage, a was not tacking soon enough and not waking soon enough.
So yes we are going to The scar hes his life, instead of gives him some time to figure it out As a normal kid. A think a need to make a longer post of this.
its a bit "funny" to me. My parents never speaks on this like it never happens it's just me ho out of thin air decided a had anxiety etc. But just saying mabye it's my child self ho is so afraid to do a mistake so the going to cut my head open. Just saying...enyho…..but yes a now this fore sure is a big burden my parents and a dont really want to talk on it anyway. Its just this unspoken thing hanging over us.
one of my Associates had his 19th day birthday a got some donuts the popcorn one was epic
have a good weekend..tomorrow am going to dig trail in north vancouver