thank you for responding! <3
Awwwww….kindred spirits, perhaps!
It does help some but I wish it helped more.
Yes, I know…We have to find what is most therapeutic…and, gradually challenge our comfort zones…i.e. sitting alone at lunch at an outdoor eatery when no one else is around…hahahaha…that’s a huge one….Of course, as most, the eyes would stay tethered to the Twitter scroll…lol….Now, the ultimate challenge would be deliberate eye contact with a stranger passing by…only to return to Twitter…lol…
…Prayerfully, you will grow so comfortable, you could embrace your authentic self without care of what anyone, particularly the most-opinionated people in your life thought…;+)
In fact, I encourage you to do such. Presenting yourself in the most authentic fashion is a good indicator of who your REAL friends are…the non-judgmental ones…Sometimes people resent you, or just plain mean-spirited, and squashing your creative side is their favorite tool…
I've thought about starting a youtube channel for awhile,
Ahem...To think to do something good is of the Spirit; and the "for awhile" part means you’ve prolly left some money on the table…lol…
No worries…it will be therapeutic and not about the money….though appreciated I’m sure!...
that secret I don't want people knowing about is how I look.
Awwwww….You are awesomely and wonderfully created by GOD!!!!
Embrace this fact; and make it your mantra until you prove to the enemy that he has no power over what God calls beautiful!!!!!!!
Now that that’s been confirmed…Millions of successful YouTube videos are hands only…scenes only….screen logos ONLY…The people NEVER show their faces…Only their voice is heard. They get subs for their content, and for their reliably showing up at the same time every day…They build a community of friends…Many turn off the up and down votes…even hide their sub numbers…always deleting troll comments; even though I say leave
em up...shows the character of sideliners...Some will be 'people you know'...lol...attempting to derail even this!
Interestingly, in my spirit, I envisioned that your vlog would always be a black screen with “steemitdiaries.com” or something like that as the focal point. Of course, you’d have to create a webpage adding your steemit blogs on your site. Btw, I rarely WATCH conversational YT vids...I just keep the video in my ear when I'm writing....
I’m glad you chimed back in; because I wanted to encourage you to set the YouTube channel up, even if you don’t start uploading for a few more weeks. Keep your videos private until you tweak your style; BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO DO IS START…lol.
All successful YT’s will tell you that failure is not doing…So, let’s try that mantra:
Nothing beats a failure except someone who….TRIED!...Yes, by George I think you’ve got it.
something to work toward
Lol…If you were my client I would boldly tell you that this phrase has EXCUSE to not do written all over it!!!! Bwahahahaha!!!
ASSIGNMENT:
If you do nothing else, secure your YT channel. Steemit Diaries has a ring to it that someone just might grab….
Set up your paypal.me account to have active for the description box when you start vlogging.
Draft your intro vlog…explain a few of your insecurities and gain a connection to your audience…no pity party, just facts.
I can see your perpetual YT intro being…Dear Diary…Today….brief music…then you chiming in: Hey guys (standard YT fare)…Today was…blah blah blah…Keep them at a cool 10 minutes…but remember the longer the vid the more money…but it has to have substance…of course you know this! ;+)
If possible, find a closet (or as many…your car)….Turn on the camera…start talking….play it back….if it sounds good…upload it and keep it in private mode. Once you get 30 or so uploads…start your channel. The important thing is once you go public be CONSISTENT. Few things are more disappointing than watching a good vlog, only to learn that the person only uploads once every blue moon.
But, anyhoo, I’m glad you’re feeling better. The sooner you get the YouTube channel going, the sooner you might find debt is no longer your friend…;+)
Btw, 
Best regards!
Peace.
RE: isolation