Tired... Totally tired... Tired ass tired...
Work ran long (lots of deliveries), so I was late getting home. The baby was here with my daughter, Frankie, but I had to take a quick shower before I could socialize. (Don't want to spread no germs to the little kid.) After the baby and her mama went home, I had a mental health brownie. (No pot in it, just triple chocolate. Not really "ON DIET," but I fuckin' NEEDED it. (Besides, chocolate helps fight off dementor fatigue, so...)
Before work, I took a bit of time to do a freewrite (ink and gel pens on reclaimed cardboard.) I wrote, without a prompt, for 13 minutes, nonstop, and I felt better after I completed my writing time. I'm not sure how entertaining it will be to READ... Hopefully, at least a little. (Feel free to evaluate the writing and leave your critique in the comments below...)
Anyway, here's what I wrote:
If you can't read my handwriting or if the image is too small to read on your phone, here's what I wrote (with a few minor corrections... I HATE errors, so freewriting is challenging for someone like me. I have to CONSCIOUSLY remember not to stop and correct everything. It's tough...) Here's what I wrote:
(1)
16 June 2020 - 13 Minute Freewrite...
Ethel edged to the precipice of the cliff. She didn't WANT to fall, but wasn't so happy that she wouldn't mind trying something different...
Ethel?? Where did I get Ethel? From Ethel Meatplow, I believe. (A band...) Ooooga booooga... Today is a sweaty day - and I just noticed that the HEATER is still on! Good...
The transition from hot to not-hot back to hot again is throwing my ass into a tizzy - and tizzy ass ain't fun...
Too many oranges - not enough teeth...
(2)
Work today, so my hope and happiness levels are diminished.
In a fantasy world, I would just write and draw and listen to music all day - making people laugh and dance - and that would be enough to earn me some low-salt food and coffee. (I shouldn't complain. I work LESS than most folks do, but I'm a broken down, old bastard, whose body is only good for a side show! Come see the Freakish Short Monster with the Funny Hats!!!)
(3)
The funny thing is, I'm mostly happy. I wish I could eat more ice cream, but other than that, I DO write and draw every day, and I DO listen to music every day... I'm already living the DREAM! (Add a few more video games, a couple of pinball machines, and some disco lights, and this would be PARADISE!! (Is it "ice" or "ise"???) (I'm a terrible speller.)
(4)
NOW, my next goal is to make enough INCOME from my art that MARIAH can retire. Then we could sit around, painting and dancing and making collages and sipping our respective drinks, and all would be well... HAPPILY EVER AFTER!
Money sucks, though. The KLF DESTROYED a million pound notes because they thought that the only way to STOP capitalism was to burn the money - take it out of circulation... I don't have a million bucks to burn...but good for them!!!
YR
I would normally retype the words below the photos of the written sheets, just to make sure everyone can read everything, (and, the next morning, I DID), but this time I'm just too damn tired. Maybe tomorrow, after I get up, I'll edit this post, and add in the typed text. (YEP!) Won't be too hard. I have a few other "chores" to work on tomorrow, too, so I better call it a night...
"It's a night."
Thanks for stopping by! Be sure to wash your hands and watch out for monsters!!!
Later!!
---Richard F. Yates
(Primitive Thoughtician and Holy Fool)
[P.S. - I know folks don't often come back and re-read a post, but I FEEL BETTER now that the typed text and the corrections are in place. Writing at night when I'm tired and drugged, and trying to type on a phone while laying in bed, these things all contribute to SLOPPY WRITING, but I like the rawness, the "who-gives-a-flying-fuck-ness," of my late-night posts, so I'll keep doing them...for now! ---RFY]
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