i stepped away from the machine a minute ago to retreat back to lay back down on my bed area to write this out on the laptop. not only is the keyboard nicer on this i needed a change of space/pace even. conversations to a minimum. i guess i really wanted to write.
this morning i had prepared myself either way for good and bad news in the usual ‘phil’ ways — if the news was bad then i should expect it and ‘well i’ve had a good run of things’ and if it was good i would treat myself to a breakfast — i admit a totally weak excuse regardless.
turns out that everything was ok, even the internal inspection that the doctor did went quickly and without a hitch, the blood work came back fine, i know it’s only a little thing but i was really elated to hear that news.
as someone that really doesn’t check in regularly with that it was great to get a doctor tell me that everything checked out and nothing was off — even thou i occasionally get that pain i guess that just comes with sitting for long periods of time — it really is time to upgrade to a standing desk.
i’m super thankful for the results, from the blood test to getting the results back i was a little bit on edge that it was something more ominous. i’d kinda built it up to be something that it’s obviously not right now, whatever that bone, nerve thing maybe it’s not something that’s potentially from issues elsewhere.
felt like i had data on this forty year old body for the first time in a long time. kinda makes me have a bit of a spring in my step today because of it.
guess the moral is don’t sit around cycling around the problem, get the data, get things checked out at the first opportunity and once you have all the facts then you can do something about it — no need for anxiety and stress about what you think it could be.
i’m super thankful today that i know i can get BETTER still by eating more of the right foods, getting those greens, drinking more lemon water and keeping more positive by doing more exercise on top of that current clean bill of health.
i’m thankfully today that i’ve been able to put that to bed and know that at least in the short term i’ll be able to see the smiling faces of the two main people in my life that i love very much because they are them.
much love.
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