Wow man this definitely resonates with me on many different levels. You see, I definitely think the universe is great we just have to have some inner faith in ourselves and see where the energy is coming from.

I am currently 26 years old. I went to University because I thought this was the way to go.

I initially went to a 2 year college which took me 3 years to complete. I broke my humerus bone and now i have plates in my right arm. I have a huge scar that took me many years to get over the insecurity that people are judging my scar. This pain changed my life. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I had to wait 3 weeks to get surgery because I didnt have insurance. My arm was broken in 3 places.

So with the insecurities. I kept reminding myself that I am the one in control of my own thoughts and well being. So now I am no longer insecure because of the words that I hear come into my mind. I've become aware of those words but give it no significance or meaning.

I ended up going to a University in the downtown area where I live. But I decided to go to another University because I thought I would come out with better options after graduating.

This was the worst decision I could've made. I felt like an outcast nearly the entire time I was at the school. Especially since I enjoy reading body language and pay close attention to people's behaviors which made me believe that nobody liked me.

Because I was hispanic and everyone, i mean everyone was white? Because I came from a low income part of the state and most people had wealthy parents?

Not until I changed the words that I allowed to come into my mind.

Anyway,

One semester I had went out with friends to the bars in this small town. We were walking back go home and next thing you know another life changing event happened in my life.

Some guys for no apparent reason wanted to start a fight with me? Was it racism?

I got punched in the eye, which I believe it was with a ring and it ruptured my right eye macula.

Now I have a scar in my eye and now i cant properly see. I have a huge blur on my eye.

I would cry all the time because I had to study so hard for exams and I couldnt see well.

This changed everything. The way I studied. The way I way I work. The way I read.

Vision is such a beautiful thing and it feels like someone took it away from me?

What happened to them? I paid my lawyer $1000 and he didnt show up to court and they got away scott free for what they did to me. This was a small city and even the judge seemed to favor them. This is the justice system?

They came from behind me and attacked me. They got away with it because I threw a cigarette and that was enough for them to not get charged with anything. Because they had a lawyer and mine didnt show up.

I graduate college after 7 hard long years. One of the hardest things i've ever done. And I always felt alone when I was there. Everyone around me seemed like they had everything settled. Having such an amazing time. Huge parties, girls, drinks, money.

I felt alone for 3 years in a city where I felt alone

I graduate and I see people around me getting these crazy jobs, traveling the world. Living a wonderful life.

I'm back home. Paying student loans off and not with the job of my dreams...

I tell you this because after much thinking i've realized why I've been so stressed about my current situation.

Because I keep looking on the outside and seeing what everyone else has and what I dont have.

I must learn how to overcome my own obstacles and keep working towards my own goals. Live peacefully, happily. Have patience.

There's so much more that can be said. But I wish you patience and endurance!

I really enjoyed the book "The subtle art of not giving a fuck" and "psycho cybernetics" check them out