Now what could I possibly be after, if the goal is to lose my mind?
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For the next 30 days, I'm going to purposely not think! Rather, every time I catch myself thinking of something, I'll replace it with an action instead. Should be fun!
This Experiment Will Help Me to
1- Auto-pilot myself to a level of mastery
2- Boost productivity by zoning out
3- Caring by not caring
4- Allow reality to properly manifest around me
Autopilot to Mastery
There is something fairly attractive to practicing something so unrestrictively that it becomes second nature to do. I am one who doesn't do anything unless I have what I feels like a solid understanding or idea of a direction. While that may lead to a stronger execution in any pursuit I may go on, more often than not, this leaves me waiting for the illusion #1 perfect opportunity (that we all know doesn't exist).
Many of my skills have been improved over long periods of time just doing the motion, without much thought behind each action. It's good to be mindful when doing anything, but these thoughts should come naturally through the process, and not through a force of will by overthinking. I'm very guilty of exhausting ideas to the core, so it's important to take a step back... but how far?
Boost Productivity By Zoning Out?
Before you come at me with a million questions of how, we can take a look at what I've been up to today. This morning I was groggy waking up at 9am. I got in the shower, and got ready to head out and do some shopping for the house. I came back home, took out the trash, did dishes, cleaned my entire kitchen and bathroom, then did the laundry before I was mentally "all there".
This was what I wanted most of my waking experience to be like. Normally I would think, and thus worry about every minuscule detail. "Is there anything else I need, not already on the list? Should I go to a further store for better product selection? Do I have everything I need to clean? Am I throwing anything out? Is it too busy in the laundromat right now?" You might be surprised, but I normally give this much thought and focus to everything around me regardless if it really makes a difference or not. Today however, I caught myself in a trance and did everything without thinking about it at all.
It can be easy to put yourself in a trap that illusion #2 things can't get done unless we are thinking actively on them. It doesn't require a neuroscientist to put detergent in a washer. And while, many things I do may require thinking, it's far less than I believe it does.
Caring by Not Caring
I need to read a lesson or two on not giving a f***. Everything I want to do at this point doesn't happen, because I am frozen in anxiety. The journey of a thousand miles right? I want to not take a step, but run a marathon without worrying about tripping every leg of the way there like I have been. There's a certain level of detachment needed, but it's far from a complete disassociation—or becoming a machine.
This is what tripped me up a bit. If I give anything less thought, do I care less? In a lot of ways yes, when it's pitted up against the "highest potential" of how much I could care, but really is it? Thinking that illusion #3 if you can't give it your undivided attention, you don't care at all. I'm lead to believe that caring is the final manifestation in an action and not the thoughts made leading up to. If there is no action, then no matter what the thought is, it will never count.
Allow Reality to Properly Manifest Around Me
A big one in shifting towards your ideal reality, and in manifestation is to allow the universe to do it's work. This doesn't happen if you can't release the thoughts. I want to progress, improve, and acquire a life I genuinely want to live. Holding on to these thoughts and feelings relentlessly however, is evidence of a scarcity mentality. I found the catch 22 in this. illusion #4If an idea is not in my forefront thoughts at all times, it won't manifest.
If there is any change I want in my world that doesn't currently exist, then holding on to all the thoughts and emotions associated with them, and not allowing it to fall back into the world... Is my way of saying that I'm scared to release these thoughts, afraid of losing them, as though my wishes are the consolation prize in never reaching my goals for real. This energy needs to be let go, and released lest my reality lay dormant. In other words, it's in my best interest not to think, not to worry.
Verdict!
Let's see what happens. Will not thinking or worrying constantly free up my world and welcome drastic change? I could put more questions, but the more I think the more chances I have to chicken out! :D Let's go!
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