Sometimes we need to cry in silence

I couldn't resist too much... my energy began to disappear...
All my dreams turned to ashes when I met a doctor...
I try to be stronger, I try to catch all the threads of hope, but they're all cut in my face...
I can't even cry.

My friends, I did not find how to express my sadness except by writing these words...
Now I'm watching in my son how he dies and I can't do anything for him...
A week ago, he was walking and playing, and today he can't move anything in his body, even his beautiful eyes are starting to disappear.
I took him to a lot of doctors and a lot of hospitals. They all shut their doors in my face..... The doctors didn't know the cause of the disease and the hospitals don't have an empty bed ... I have to wait until Monday...

I'm too sad for my son, and I'm also very sad about children who die in silence... When they told me in the hospital that there was no empty bed in order to treat your son. I felt a lot of anger and sadness... How come there is no empty bed and we are the richest countries in Africa... Where are the oil and gas money? And I felt sad for the children of poor countries...

Sometimes we need to cry in silence... But we must get this sadness out of us in order to be able to see the light of hope, love, and peace.

Tomorrow I will start a trip to search for hope. and I hope it is not far...
And I'll write here all new... In order not to succumb to grief.