It's not breaking news that mental health goes nuts at Christmas. Seasonal affective disorder. Excessive drinking. Stressful present buying. Awkward family obligation. On top of your original diagnosis, no suprise it can turn into a bit of a shit show.
For the past few years, I've always had a breakdown around Christmas time. I've had to take time off work in two different jobs (which is really hard when everyone thinks you just don't wanna work new years eve) and either gone so manic I did so many weeks in advance fiddly handmade gifts or I went the gift card/supermarket section last minute route.
My small family still gets together for Christmas. My mum, dad, two bros, grandma and schizo uncle. There's no kids yet and the line up changes some years.
My breakdown usually manifests a few weeks before in a bit of a panic that I haven't done anything with my life this year. Lucky me my birthday is in 6 months so I've got the same breakdown material but twice a year.
But, I feel (GOD FORBID NOT ON TOP OF THINGS) alright. This year has been such a bloody rollercoaster i.e material for future life therapy - I'm just feeling a bit reflective, rather than destructive. Not exactly peaceful.. but dealing with it.
I know I haven't posted in forever, and this post is off topic and a bit ego based, but just wanted to say a big MERRY CHRISTMAS, wish you all mental health you can live with, and a happy same life with the steps to be the best you!
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