If I sit at home not working without out much money I get restless. I gotta get out and get a burger just so I can do something. When I feel like this I'm unable to concentrate on reading, writing or creativity. I know when I get back I will be able to do more creative and productive things.
When I get lonely like this I tend to dwell on broken social situations. How I don't want to hang out with depressed people doing antisocial things. It makes my condition worse. I feel alone then want to see some people and they are depressed and drowning their sorrows. That is the worst
I want to have more fun really. I got to be more of a fun person yet know it's not fun all the time. I feel better when I eat and get out a bit. I've been like this in winter here where I don't eat much, don't have any money and feel weak and kinda depressed. Life has been a tough go but I love life too. I've felt burnt out anxious and cabin fevered much in my life. I really gotta fight to stay sane. Even writing these little blogs keeps the sanity going a bit. Can't rely on one outlet though. Diversifying is more healthy
