I need to say this, why people still look at the cancer as the most incurable illness of the 21st century?
Why people are still scared with the cancer as it is the end of the world, when actually is not?
I will tell you my own personal experience.
I was told year ago that I have lesion on my uterus and breast. As a nurse myself I took very proactive approach I went and I saw every possible specialist to get the most useful knowledge I could.
However I am not going to lie, this was probably not the best idea indeed, as I came across something which is scary at least and shocking. The moment when you are told they find something it is kind of situation like your body does not belong to you anymore it is from now onward the property of the medical health service. I started deeply to question if it is health service, or ill service, but this will come back later.
I am not going to talk about the etiology of the cancer because this is not the purpose of this blog, it is more about ignorance and quality of information's which they are spread all around and people are buying this because they are fed with fear and overpowering influence of health service.
I still have the sounds of the conversation in my head when doctor said, they want to remove huge chunk of my left breast as well as the lymph nodes just to be on the safer side. I said I really do appreciate the idea of the surgery to remove whatever it is there however still without clear diagnose if it is cancer! However the tone of the voice it must be removed and to be on the safer side to remove the lymph nodes as well I found as a pure insult.
I was sitting in this chair and I was listening to this with significant disbelieve, did he really said, to be on the safer side to remove lymph nodes as well? I did ask him myself as well, because I could not believe my ears. He said yes, they will need to remove lymph nodes as well.
At this stage I was so blessed that he was not able to read in my mind because my thoughts were following his way of thinking and I was deeply convinced if he would ever going to experience headache the best solution should be to amputate the head just to be on the safer side!!!
The silence which was kind of obvious after his statement encourage him to continue with the other options for later, as radiation or chemotherapy...At this stage I did ask if We can make second follow up appointment with different consultant in order for me to have second opinion. After this i left the office.
The second appointment with second consultant was in one way copy and paste of the first one, so I am not going to comment on this, however the good outcome was to make appointment with third consultant which was kind of light into the tunnel.
I did ask him question actually if killing chemo and radiation, as well as unnecessary surgery is my only option? He said no.
Obviously it is my choice what I am going to chose but this options are the most common and chosen by patient. I did straighten this way of thinking, I said that nobody is exploring different options with patients to start with.
I did ask him to have follow up with him and only him only in few months time. He said it is a great idea and we left.
Why I am saying this?
Because I strongly believe if you have cancer to start with you need to look for the root of it, trying to treat symptoms is like giving you pain killers for bleeding wound and not doing anything to stop the bleed which is the real problem.
I know why I got cancer. I know that. So since this discovery of me being diagnosed with cancer I did focus my energy on the roots of the cancer, why this is happening and what every single person can do to prevent, heal and making sure never comes back again.
I started from healing my emotional trauma, which was the root for me to get cancer. I want you only at this stage to realize that your thoughts are powerful beyond measure. thoughts are things, so emotional trauma is like bomb with slow release system and effecting your body on cellular level.
Later I did change my diet and I am not feeding cancer cells any more. I am eating to be healthy and to keep cancer cells on the level when they are not going to cause a havoc in my body. Because every single person have cancer cells in their body, the problem start when the balance is gone because of the prolong stress, deficiency of certain vitamins and minerals which are responsible for keeping your immune system at the best working condition killing all unnecessary cancer cells at the beginning.
I needed to say this, because as much as I am upset about being ill, I am upset that I was abusing my body for so long and as a result I got myself a cancer and later when you try to fix it the only options which they will offer is to further damage your priceless body. I know this is not a quick fix type of thing however I am happy for one thing CANCER COMPLETELY CHANGED MY LIFE for better! I started finally looking after myself, I started to pay attention to quality of thoughts which indeed are so powerful, I finally cured my trauma which lead me to be ill, I changed the way I am eating, drinking, sleeping, relaxing and what kind of people I do surround myself with.
I think it is time to stop the overwhelming brainwashing information which are so powerful as well as so damaging to everyone. It is so important to do your own research and sometimes do not trust people to much because not everyone want our best, some people just want to use you, make money and this is what they are only interested in. So yes it is crucial to look at this from perspective of empowering curb, digging within yourself to find the balm to heal the bleeding and unattended wounds for the last so many years. I needed to love again men who cheated on me and betrayed me with to small babies. I needed to stop myself from poisoning my mind-body, with hate, anger, jealousy. I started to look at my mind-body as a treasure box where I keep love, happiness and sweet and beautiful memories.
First time in very long time I feel peace and happiness within myself. I am looking forward to bright and beautiful future. I am so grateful for this experience as actually exposed to me some very urgent truths about myself which I did not want to face it.
I am not asking why this happen to me? Because why not happen to me? I am so blessed for this experience because once again teach me to be humble and love myself unconditionally first. Do not expect external forces to fix you if the issue is purely internal. Sending you so much healing love and positive vibes for now and always. I know everyone have different experience with cancer, this is mine and I want to speak up. I want to let this out of my system.
All the best and be bless
from Margo.