Tired. Can't sleep. Too many exciting things happening for me to have a quiet mind. Each time my head hits the pillow, all the conversations I've had replay in my mind. I see others grabbing hold of opportunity and being successful and I feel disappointed in my own effort. I'm hard on myself at times. Sometimes I think I'm not hard enough.
The whole environment of Steemit and Steemspeak has changed dramatically over the last few weeks and months. An influx of users has felt like a tidal wave of attention coming into my life. I've got people sending me PM's in Discord asking me to look at their posts. People seeking my advice on how to be successful on Steemit. I'm not sure I know those answers, but I tell them what I can.
My focus has been so much about helping others. Now there are just so many people needing help. I can't even assimilate it all at the moment.
I'm drifting through a twilight between the setting sun of my past life and the dawning of my future life. In this darkening environment I can only see what is directly in front of me. There are too many stumbling around in the same twilight wondering when the dawn will come for them. I can help myself, and I think I will. Perhaps not all of us will come out of this twilight. It is time to plot my own way towards the dawn.
