The feeling of self destruction, no other option but to fail is not the option. Life brings froths opportunities witch you just have to be patient to see and take from. All you have to do is want the change in life and to make it happen. No one else can make the choice for you but yourself. It takes a lot in a person to see good and evil but it takes nothing just to walk away and add up what you think of the world to make a difference in.