Let us with a gladsome heart praise the Lord for he's good. For his mercies shall endure, he's ever faithful forever more.
Many times we walk through life thinking its all us and our past, yes your past definitely occurred but it doesn't define you. If it takes just a moment to make a decision then be mindful of the fact that it's your decisions that define you and nothing else. Consider this, you need to decide which move to take next and it takes a moment after months of thinking to decide on what to do. Truth? Yes. Now that decision goes a long day to affect your daily activities, routine, friends and all other whatsoevers. Mind you, nothing about your past caused this sudden change nothing but the decision. So then, we need to watch what influences our decisions. The Bible says many are the plans in a man's heart buy the counsel of the Lord shall prevail. It also says man plans in his heart but God directs his path. We all agree that bad company corrupts good manners. If so, then we have to be careful the surroundings we entertain.
God is our refuge and strength. Even in our sleep he's looking out for our good. I'd advice we take a shot at his mercy and grace. Enjoy his presence and favour. Struggling was not meant for you, so wasn't pain and suffering for you. You deserve freedom and I mean absolute freedom. Just sign up, for God so loved you that's why he gave his only begotten son up to die and set you FREE!
God bless you. And stay blessed in Jesus name.