Barry I don't know your problems and in no way am I attempting to make lite of them.
If I were you, which I am not, I would pay as much attention to those things the GREAT CREATOR has blessed you with and a little less to those IT has not. I think you might find the blessings far outweigh those that are troubling you. Give thanks for those blessings but always remember they are lessons regardless if they cause you to smile or to weep.
Good luck my friend and always walk tall. Upvoted and resteemed