The almighty God has sent each of us- his creation - to let people know that God loves them . This is the unique mandate that God has given us ,thus ,we must love one another so as to fulfill our heavenly mandate. This is the purpose of living,this is what we must do to bring glory to God's name and act in His grace. Read Jeremiah 48:10-15.
Only look on to Jesus Christ and He will help you discover who you are and grant you the grace to have an excellent spirit. Everyone in this world has been created by God to fulfill His purpose and mandate .
Our personal commitment to God's work on earth is what is needed to hone/develop our spirit for the fulfillment our heavenly mandate in life. Your commitment is what will help you to grow in life not your efforts. The challenges you're facing help to churn out the champion in you by growing your faith!