I don't know what is wrong with me honestly. I am a Muslim. I feel empty.
I am abandoned by those whom I call family. Made mistakes and dropped out of school along the way. Been jumping from one friends house to the other.
I have been calling to my creator (if any) to alleviate my situation.
I only want to feel sane, feeling numb as I write.
No empathy, no remorse, no sense of happiness to exciting things.
What have I done wrong to deserve all this.
For the first time in my life grey hair has started coming out of my head at age 25.
I spent hours without knowing what exactly I am doing, or where I am, drifting into what I can't explain.
For the first time I understand why some people embrace atheism.
I have thought of suicide but too weak to even carry it out.
I silently pray for death yet here I remain in this forsaken world.
I don't even have a place I call home now, talkless of purpose.
I first posted this on this site but people there didn't take it serious.
Been feeding with friends help and some of the little tasks online for cash like blogging here.
If you have anything soothing for me to read, on Christianity, suicide and life please post it.
I need help. If Christianity is it, then so be it.