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I have been searching for a church to go to ever since I left one in the beginning of this year. My search is still ongoing. I've tried several big established churches to some of the medium to homey kinds. All to feel that God hasn't shown me one that I could stay, so I continued moving from one to another. For a period of 3 months, I decided to take a step back also due to work stresses and the lack of sleep and rest. During these 3 months, I stopped going to church because I really needed to time to recuperate my body but deep down inside, I yearn to be in the fellowship of believers, to worship God with them and to hear His word.

Taking this step back was good for me as I began to see things much clearer. My father was worried that I would go astray and stopped going to church but I told him not to worry. I love God. God has given me so much of Himself throughout my whole life. Just by looking back, you can see His footprints all over my journey. From healing my asthma attack, to protecting me from the devil, to encountering Him and to speak into my heart and changed me inside out. There are many more testimonies that showed how God was there for me but during this few months of quietness, He was silent too.

He was silent but I knew He was there.

I trust in His promises everyday, that He will not leave me. He will forever be my Jehovah Jireh, my Provider, which brings me to how timely today's sermon was. Yesterday, I texted

Hive account@danielwong because I have always wanted to go visit his church but have never gotten the chance to and at the most random of times when I was attending a game expo yesterday, I picked up my phone and asked for the church's address. I was excited to come back to the house of the Lord again.

True enough, when I reached, my excitement grew as worship was led by Michelle. It was a wholesome worship and a very spiritual one. Something that I have not felt in months since I last left my previous church. I loved the worship and the sermon which came next. The message was about our 'focus' as a believer in Christ, which came quite timely for me.

As a Christian, we all know that God is there, God will provide, God is for us, etc etc but do we really mean what we say? Often times, even I find myself neglecting the purpose of these 'statements' because truth be told, most of us have not met the bottom to know what the top is. For example, I wouldn't know what it means to be relieved and healed if I have never been broken down before. If life was just smooth sailing, our dependency on God wouldn't be as meaningful anymore.

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Focus on Him

I was going through some stuff emotionally and one of them was falling head over heels for someone....again. I like her but at the same time, I know that our views are VERY different. We live way different lives and I know that if I were to pursue, it would never work out. God never did give me the peace to start dating her and I myself know better of why He doesn't let me do so. Time and time again, this loop of being a hopeless romantic would repeat itself but I'm glad that I came to His word this morning that reassured me for not only my love life but that my future is in His hands.

I needed to reshift my focus to the Provider. The God of miracles. The One who always knows what's best for me because He loves me.

So when church ended, I'm glad that this little divine plan to visit Daniel's church seemed like what God wanted me to do this week. He reassured me of the life He has set before me, unknowingly but forever trusting in Him, my Provider.

Have a good week ahead!