Sometimes, it is not helping even you know it is wrong and meaningless
有时候明知道是错的还是会继续错下去，明知道没有意义却依然投入其中，乐此不疲
I have spent 3-4 hours per day using the phone and PC, without achieving anything, which I feel upset and anxious. I dare not think further. However, I just can’t stop blaming myself, feeling guilty everytime I indulge myself, which is not helping me at all.
一天之中投入三四个小时在手机电脑之中，我没想过自己获得了什么。或者说想过，当发现自己似乎一无所获后，这之间的焦躁与不安让我不敢再去深入思考这个问题。如此这般再度投入其中，意图用它带给我的放松与欢乐来麻痹自己，每每到了夜间又对自己是如此不争气而指责、愧疚，令我更加无法直视自己存在的问题。
I said to myself many times that I want to set a goal from tomorrow. I set the goal but did nothing. It happens before, it happens now and it is happening in the future. How could this help without determination at all?
我不止一次的对自己说明天开始的我要怎样怎样，中学的期中期末考前如此，四六级英语前也是如此，乃至未来的研究生考试或许还是如此。如此决心又有什么用呢？
总是决心从头再来 又何尝不是对没有勇气回望自己曾经犯下的错误的借口？当决心成了口号，坚持成了尝试，人生也许就成了玩笑。
Sometimes we may not really understand the truth we said, particularly for us students.We are familiar with various social cases and philosophy of life from young to old.Therefore, we thought we ourselves know clearly what you mean by saying these,a nd also we seemed to be mature and could well behave . But is it really the same as what we thought abou?
道理有时会说未必真的懂，尤其对于我们学生而言更是如此。从小到大的耳濡目染，以及各种社会案例的言传身教，都令我们存在一个“你说的我们都懂”的认知之中，这也使得我们认为似乎我们已经成熟，可以控制好自己。然而事实真如我们所想的那样吗？
I thought a lot tonight. Maybe, at some moments, you just grow up. And I really hope that I were at that moment!
这一晚我想了很多，也许正如那句话说的：成长，有时候只在一瞬之间！而我希望，我的成长就在这一瞬间！
Thank you very much.
在这分享自己的切身体会，望能与君共勉！谢谢大家！