应该写一些快乐积极的事情才对，但是我就在今天！对，就在今天早上！我刚刚做了一件最丢脸的事情！这件事情足够可以毁掉我前二十多年来积攒起来的人品！因为真的太丢脸了！
事情是这样的，昨天晚上因为在公司加班写工作总结，还有下月工作计划，因为白天刚刚被老总狠批一顿，所以跟朋友唠叨了几句，朋友来办公室陪我解闷儿，说着说着就开始吞云吐雾起来，吸烟一半的时候发现没有烟灰缸，结果发现一位同事的杯子，朋友顺手就拿起来开始弹烟灰…
我当时估计是太沮丧了，我竟然没有阻止！竟然没有阻止！我的天啊我这么注重细节的人，我竟然没有阻止！更可怕的事情还在后面！
写完总结和计划，朋友就和我出去吃饭了！…你们肯定会问，那同事的杯子呢？
对！就是这个问题，先不说用了人家喝水的杯子来装烟头和烟灰，临走时候竟然还不知道给人家收拾起来！我得天啊！这不是赤裸裸的对人家的挑衅和侮辱吗！我的天啊！
到了今天早上，我也是宿醉刚醒，因为心情郁闷，发现我连我得文件包也都在办公室里没有拿走，而且烟盒打火机等也都放在电脑旁我得天啊！
开始我开门进来时候也是像往常那样跟同事打招呼和聊天，发现同事脸阴沉沉的，没有理我，我坐到那里发现同事的杯子还在，而且已经清理干净！对，你没有听错！同事的杯子已经被清理干净！
我瞬间清醒！一拍脑袋才想起来昨天晚上对她的杯子干得龌龊事！一种不可名状的懊恼与情绪瞬间蔓延开来！…第一个念头想要解释，但是转念一想，她现在肯定在气头上，这不是往枪口上撞吗？
所以还是先别解释，首先道歉！必须首先道歉！而且是诚恳的道歉，要真挚！我开口之后，她说我不想跟你说话！不是杯子的事！我知道这事情大条了！估计以后挽回的余地都没有了！都怪我没事沮丧什么！又喝什么酒！
同事非常宽宏大量，工作的文章还是照常发给了我。我心里更是惭愧之极。我最最担心的就是这种氛围会影响到团队工作和协同，我真希望她骂我一顿…
我说要赔给她杯子，她说不会再要了，言外之意也就是说给我的人品判了死刑了。
不管她接受不接受，我还是要再次给她鞠躬道歉！不管什么原因，不管是被损友陷害还是被坑，结果就是结果，那就是把她的杯子毁了！不可挽回的毁掉了，毁掉的同时也是那份同事之间那种本来就如履薄冰的微乎其微的信任感。
瞬间我万念俱灰。本来工作压力就很大，而且工作也很不好开展，这样一来，每天面对同事又是那种懊恼情绪主宰！我得天啊！我不敢想象！
我想要赔给她一个新的杯子，然后再找个机会给她赔罪请吃饭！我知道有些事做了以后会有很多连锁反应，我知道同事肯定不会原谅，因为错了就是错了，没有理由。但是我还是想要表达我得歉意！
再次跟那个同事鞠躬道歉，我的错！对不起！
不知道哪天给你赔罪，你是否会赏光？
此致敬礼
以下是英文翻译，翻译不周请多包涵
You should write some happy and positive things, but I am today! Right, just this morning! I have just done one of the most humiliating things! This thing is enough to ruin the character that I have accumulated in more than two decades ago! Because it's so shameful!
This is the case. Last night was due to writing a job overtime at the company. There was also a work plan for the next month. Because during the day, the boss had just approved a meal, so I had a few words with my friend and my friend came to the office to accompany me. As soon as he spoke, he began to smoke and smoke. When he smoked half of the time he found no ashtray. As a result, he found a colleague’s cup and his friend picked it up and started playing ash...
I was estimated to be too depressed, I actually did not stop! Did not even stop! My God, I am so concerned about the details of the people, I actually did not stop! More terrible things are still behind!
After finishing the summary and plan, my friend went out for dinner with me! ... you will surely ask, which colleague's cup?
Correct! This is the problem, let's not talk about people drink cups to install cigarette butts and soot, before leaving actually did not know to get people packed! Oh my god! This is not a naked provocation and insult to others it! My goodness!
To this morning, I was just a hangover and I was awake because I was depressed and found that even my documents were not taken in the office. I also had my cigarette lighter on the computer.
At the beginning, when I opened the door, I also greeted my colleagues and chatted as usual. I found that my colleague’s face was gloomy and ignored me. I sat there and found that my colleagues’ cups were still there and they had been cleaned up! Yes, you did not get it wrong! Colleagues' cups have been cleaned!
I am sober! Just think of a racket last night on her cup did nothing! An indescribable annoyance and emotions instantly spread! ... The first idea you want to explain, but then think it over, she is certainly in a fit of aura, this is not to muzzle hit it?
So first do not explain, first apology! Must apologize first! And sincerely apologize, be sincere! After I spoke, she said I do not want to talk to you! Not a cup thing! I know this is big! It is estimated that there is no room to restore it! All blame me for nothing! What kind of wine!
Colleagues were very generous and the articles on the job were still sent to me. My heart is ashamed of the very. My most worry is that this atmosphere will affect the team work and coordination, I really wish she scolded me meal ...
I said to pay her the cup, she said no longer wanted, implying that my character is sentenced to death.
Whether she accepts or not, I still have to bow to her once again to apologize! Whatever the reason, whether it is framed or pitred, the result is the ruin of her cup! Irreparably destroyed, destroyed, and at the same time, a negligible sense of trust that would otherwise have been treacherous among colleagues.
Instant I despair. Work pressure would have been great, and the work is not good to carry out, so that the face of colleagues every day is the kind of annoyance dominate! Oh my god! I can not imagine!
I want to pay her a new cup, and then find a chance to pay for her. Please eat! I know that after some things have been done, there will be a lot of chain reactions. I know my colleagues will certainly not forgive, because wrong is wrong, there is no reason. But I still want to express my apologies!
Bow once again to apologize to that colleague, my fault! I am sorry!
Don't know if you will be guilty of compensation on that day. Will you appreciate it?
Sincerely