Why do people idolize and love the relationship between Harley Quinn and the Joker? Because of suicide squad? Read the comics. She was good until she met him, he traumatized her and made her insane. That isn't relationship goals. That is deep seeded trauma that can lead to lifelong problems and teaching us to want things that are not good or healthy for us.
People see The Suicide Squad and get butterflies thinking that's how a relationship should be when in actuality she thrived more before it.
Work on you and the person that you are meant to be with will gravitate. Don't be who you think they want.
I found my perfect person. He knows I am flawed and rather than making me feel worse about it he is helping me become better. Be the best me I can be.
Getting sick made me unable to shine my brightest but once my body gets rid of it I will be on a whole new level. I know it, believe it and will manifest it into being.