Have you tried intaglio? Your style really would work perfect with that technique and I think you can actually do things that you can't do with normal drawing utensils. The depth of the oil colour can be really beautiful.
I bought these deranged coins and for every five you should be able to send one new coin every day (and I bought 10 :). So I will try to give you one even though I had a lot of problems yesterday giving one to .
Here goes:
!DERANGED
EDIT: HAHA! It worked.
RE: Fear of abandonment. Pen drawing.