It's been quite a year, I must say. So many things I learnt, of which some I wish I didn't (persona 5 spoilers), and there's still a lot for me to learn.
(Took this photo at Lago de la República, CDE - Paraguay)
I can't help but keep thinking about my "future", even though I'm still really young. Next year I'm starting highschool, and it's.. scary, to say the least. I've felt as if I'm normal, or sometimes a bit above average.. but I don't know if I'm even ready for highschool's education system. Maybe it's the same, but if it isn't? What is there left of me if not even capable to finish the first year? Utter embarrassment.
The people around me also change, and so do I. Maybe I do, a bit too much. I keep thinking of new ways of acting every day, and it's a bit hard to stay the same. Or maybe I'm just adapting to the always changing world around me. Maybe both, that's also a viable option, and the most possible one too. I wish we could all stay the same, maybe just a year. What if this year was like a steady river, instead of a changing flow of turbulent waters??? Maybe people would've stayed the same, or it would've just all collapsed due to the sudden stop.
(My younger sister.)
I often like to think, what would happen if I randomly ceased to exist? Would my family grieve, or celebrate? Would my friend search for me? Would those who care about me pursue my goals in honor to my "legacy"??? What about my cat, dog and computer?? My game accounts... my money...
There's so much to do, so much to say. A year is plenty of time, if you think about it. 365 days, 5 hours, 48 minutes, and 45 seconds.. but with all that there is to do, that time would never be even close to enough. I hope, from the bottom of my heart, that maybe next year, I'll make good use of my time. I hope to achieve my dearest goals, no matter how insignificant.
