Remember this imperfect monster that I created 2 years ago? I sure do and I smile every time I see it.
It's an illustration that I made for a short story titled The monster of Dis-con-nec-ted-ness ( whose name is a wordjoke on The Monster of Loch Ness ).
Here's the original post and story
Now I can't help but feel that it perfectly illustrates what I'm working on these days, my upcoming podcast.
It's funny how my resistance, I'm talking about the negative voice ) somewhat of a monster ) inside my head, tries hard to stop me from starting to share fragments of my podcast about perfectionism, among other themes, with the world.
It won't trick me this time, though
I feel it's growing weaker and weaker,
while I grow STRONGER.
This story needs to be told.
It WILL be told.
and like this
in its perfectly imperfect way.
As that's exactly the point.
If I wouldn't do it in an imperfect way, it would pretty much defy my purpose behind doing this.
And
aside from that
I would lose
and resistance would win
And those of you who could actually benefit from this message
and I feel there's plenty
would never hear this ( at least not exactly in these words, in this shape and form )
Just to be clear:
My intention isn't to preach mediocrity.
I believe in growth
and in working on yourself daily
but some people have to counter all the ( fake ) perfection that we're bombarded with in our everyday lives. Some of us need to show the imperfect little steps inbetween that make up most of our time.
To make more of us feel better, instead of like we're imperfect, not good enough, lacking, less than others.
I feel that someone like me is perfectly capable of doing exactly that, without playing the victim.
I have felt like a loser for a long, long time but not any more.
I am aware of the fact that I am still far from perfect and I have been on this planet for over 4 decades now. If anyone can share the creative process and knows about failure, it's me. Just ask my friends and family ;<)
So, every single day, I keep sculpting away at my work, my stories, my podcast, myself, and I plan to start sharing some of these splinters, pieces of the puzzle, perfectly imperfect fragments, in audio with all of you very, very soon.
TO BE CONVINUED...